Summer of Enlighenment

The beginning of August has been a crazy one. Lots has happened and a lot has changed, most of it for the better of each individual in a significant way. I don't even know where to begin or what to include in this post, a lot that has happened over the past 3 weeks has been very personal to everyone.

I guess I'll begin with me. Sara and I have broken up, well I broke up with her, then it got complicated and ended up being kind of a mutual break up with out being together for the week leading up to the "mutual" break up, none the less we are over now. I still wish to be her friend, but she has been making it difficult in ways I can not explain, on the other hand I have too made things rather complicated thus preventing us from sustaining a normal friendship. I really hope for the best for of us.

I am having a hard time letting go, she meant a lot to me and recently it seems like she is just cutting me out of her life. She says she wants to go to join the Peace Corp. to help people in Africa. But a little bit of me tells me she wants to go so bad now is to get away from me. So i have decided to try to move on, try to not talk to her as much because it pains her apparently to see or hear from me. Most likely has something to do with how we broke up.

On a more positive note, I have become very close to my friends now. We all had this crazy night where we had completely bonded we shared our feelings and just let it all out and we had a good night. We have pretty much found out that this group of friend is going to last, we've made it over the after high school hump and are going strong. Secrets were uncovered and truth has brought us together like a family.

Even though we are closer now more than ever some of us are still very distant, due to uncontrollable circumstances. Dispite the distancing we are all growing and matureing, some slower than others, but they're on the right path to get their life back in motions. This goes everyone that has been involved in my life in the past month.

Aside from all the T.V. like drama, I have still found time to bike as much as I can with injuring myself or passing out from exhaustion. I am progressing in my art work and even found time to write a few songs and short stories. The school year is now starting and I will be as busy as a bee in spring, but that just means my life is on fast track for now. The summer flow is over, cant wait till next summer.