It is a rare moment when you realize what you really want.

After watching a movie, I got to thinking. Almost has nothing to do with the movie I watched, but it did inspire and jog my mind to conclude to the kind of person I want in my life. Just like any movie that has a romantic tie in it, you question yourself and answer your own questions. What do I want in a... kindrid-spirit, soul mate, the one and only, and all of those ways you can say the one person you want in your life. I have answer'd my quiry, and will be relentless in quizing and testing my conclusion on whom I choose to spend what ever there is left of my life with.

I want someone who will accept me and the people I choose to include in my life. Weither they like it or not, but prefferably I would want someone that does. 

Someone who can forgive my mistakes even though I wont forgive myself. Someone that is as stubborn as I am, but with an understanding for compermize. 

Someone who will admit they are lying, even though the damage has been done, only to seek forgiveness from me as I will do the same for them. 

Someone that can be as spontanious as the flames of a camp fire, and as calm as a nice warm blanket on a cold morning, afternoon, evening and in sleep. 

Someone who will not base more than what is need to be on sex and the act of sex. I feel that it is key to keep that in mind, for it is only our primative instinct to want sexual intercourse, but it is a working, loving realtionship that knows when that is a reason to be upset, mad, insecure, or to even include it in argument.

I want someone who is understanding. Understanding in a way that they can see why I have the habits I do, and why I choose not to correct them. For everyone needs a way to cope with life, and love is a part of it, so it can not be an answer to those times where the whole world seems like it is against you. Any habit, wheither it is drinking myself to near death with alcohal poisening, or smoking till my lungs are chard black and is full of ash. The helping, yet not so healthy crutches is what someone who is as weak as the next person needs.

Mostly, I want someone with ambition. Someone who has ambition and the will and determination to make ambitions become plans, and follow through those plans as much as needed to achieve their ambitious goals in life, money, self fulfillment. I admire anyone with such traits.

Along with these, someone who can deem respect just as much as they want it. Someone who is polite in good company, and rude when they need to weed out the bad. Also respect among the people I respect and hold as an authorative figure in my life, as I will do the same for theirs. 

I maybe setting my standards high, but this is all in the name of progress and the pursuit of personal happiness. When too many of these traits fail to show up in the one I am with, then I am sorry to say that I may have to break their hearts, or allow them to break mines. For I am all of the above, but then again I am not. I compose these thoughts so I can find the best for me and maybe I the best for them. For I only want the best for myself and those I choose to surround myself with. I will faulter in someways, but keep in mind... i am trying my best, to find love, to find companionship, to find what is out there for me.