Dont get ahead of yourself...

It's odd to me, when I discover something. I obsesse involentarilly and it is nice at first, but soon it is the only thing I can think about. Then it soon becomes annoying, I have other things to think about. It bothers me even though it shouldn't. Now it seems kind of pointless, I thought it was fun and everything even though the moments were imperfect. But, I guess I just got my hopes up. I am usaually good at protecting myself from such things. Caught off gaurd I guess, but should I have a gaurd up to begin with? I don't know any more. I wish I can say what I want and not sound creepy or obsessive or crazy. Maybe I am and everyone is just being nice to me by looking over it. But tonight I want to just forget, it'll help me regain my trail of thoughts before it was pleasently intruded on. Who knows, maybe things will get better and turn out the way I wish things would later on this week. But as for now, I am a bit dissapointed in myself. Letting myself get in this mood, it's not good for me and the people around me don't like seeing me like this.