After a night of drinking, song writing, and emotional blocks

I've found myself to write the most depressing songs, when I am at a happy drunk. The kind of drunk when your with your friends and everything is funny. Your laughing, they are laughing and we're all happy. But everytime I break out my sketchbook/notebook I dot down the most depressing and heartfilled songs. Unhealthy, yeah it probably is. But I am doing this because this is the only emotional release I can have with out breaking into a dry cry (i for some medical reason, cannot produce emotional tears). 

It feels good after. I feel good, after a nice night with some of my closest friends drinking and acting like morons at night, stumbling around in my room, spilling beer and saying all the wrong things in all the wrong ways. Yet, from what I can remember I can still keep most of my composer, and I guess that is when I am most deep into thought. No one in partictular lingers in my mind, just a bunch of memories. Some are good ones, and some are bad ones, but these memories fuel my drive to write, and hopefully perform songs. Toy A and Boy J